{EXPRESS YOURSELF}

Saturday, January 27, 2007

hello!

i made collage for the birthday celebration that we had for weilong. i suddenly had the inspiration and conviction to do it. so here goes:

so this is the one i made myself.

and this, is the one made by picasa.

since this was made with a computer programme, they repeated some of the pictures. but its nice la. and saves alot of trouble and hassle. i understand why people love picasa now. im lazy to explore picasa's functions. will look at it soon.

anyway, had a super slack day in school. cabbed to school, cause i woke up late at 6.50. now i understand how those people who rush to school feel, without your parents waking you up, and to sit in the comfort of your parents' car. anyway, God has an interesting way to bless me. i prayed for the fare to be below 10.50, the previous cab fare, and it was, like this: the uncle somehow drove a wrong way, so i thought i was gonna be late. then by the time i reached after the uncle turned a big round about SJI, it was 12.10. and the uncle said in chinese, i charge you $10.00 la. and thank God, i was so blessed! and i was on time. i think God always have something up His sleeve to bless ppl.

anyway, had a nice day after school with hoppies. had a nice talk. somehow, feel comforted and relaxed and relieved. cause probably, im sutley reminded that im not the only one in this race, and going thru' tough times as well. and cause of some long wait, we were late for pm. then rushed down with layling. then met zhicai, and forced a choc bar down him. and then went home, since my mum came down to fetch me. then bla bla. tired to invite frns for EX3, but didnt really work out. anw, then was inspired to do collage and here i am.

express yourself {12:32 AM}

Thursday, January 25, 2007

urh. its not about the frequency you listen/worship/go to Him. sometimes its simply about the quality and proportion of the time you give to Him. isit the time whereby you're most alert, or in a state where you can worship God the best? or isit a time whereby many things could be done, but that you delibrately choose to give it to Him as an offering to Him?

the time which is difficult to devote, cause it could be used for many other things.

but today, I want to place myself as a living sacrifice back unto the altar. everytime my body goes crawling away, i throw myself back there. help me. i want to stick close to you. and real close.

express yourself {10:36 PM}

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

when the heat in the pressure cooker just fills up and descends upon one. one feels strangled and being mauled at. the pressure just slams itself upon one and one simply feels horrible.

first the !%), then the green, then the annoying letters that strings itself into something unkind.

anyway, to the world out there. i wonder who reads this, but dont sms or call me anymore. until i tell you guys a new number to. 96226637 is dead and extinct for the time being. archaic and archived.

express yourself {11:34 PM}

crap im into deep crap. ahh. :/
stupid 150.

express yourself {10:43 PM}

hey people. its really good to worship God more, and its really good to just pop in your mp3 player after a tired day of whatever and just spend geniune time as far as your body enables you with God. then God's presence will refresh you. then even though you still MAY be physically tired, but spiritually you're sharper and bright. you'll still be able to handle ministry problems well.

i'm gonna make good use of my time. and also, I really just wanna enjoy more and more of intimate time with Him. =) its a great feeling to feel that you're close to Him. And that will purify us, and help us live a more and more holy life!

express yourself {10:06 PM}

Sunday, January 21, 2007

im depressed.

my world is fading, everything in it is crumbling. all are lost, despair and desperate fill my heart. its utter desolation and turmoil. everything's in chaos and there's no hope.

i'm depressed.

its pitch-black, and my heart's parched and wrecked. i'm beyond sadness, exceeding pain. i hate this. i dont want this. it wasn't meant to happen. its the worst thing of my life. i hate this life. and its all because of...

MY FRIGGIN' OVEN THAT SHORT-CIRCUITED AND KILLED ITSELF.
And we cannot proceed on with the plan alrdy! then its time to come up with plan b of plan b again. Arhh.

I hope they'll appreciate. Help them see.

this is after i prepared the batter, and after i tired turning on the oven, which is after i cleaned stuff, which led me to the conclusion that my oven died. nice looking, choco-gooey mixture. (:

close-up! dont think ya can see much detail. i wrapped it up, so it'll stay fresh, i hope, so i can bake it again after my dad does something about the oven.

into the fridge! now, it looks extremely... dark here. haha.

and there! the door's closing! bye batter! stay cool in there! ahahah.

express yourself {5:05 AM}

i've been fed and is full, in both sense of the word.

just ate big macs. im bloated, and i cant move.

i have decided to follow Jesus,
no turning back

during shirls CLM, felt as though i was binging and gnawing down on spiritual meat, bread and drink. the feast of food on the table. gonna decide to walk with you, all the time. wanna walk right with you all the time, and always hear you speak so closely, and clearly. wanna just be able to receive direct instructions just like that, able to worship and talk to you so closely like that. sheer joy. :)

gonna find time to spend more time with my people now. (: and most importantly, Him. waah. i better be gone now.

ciao.

express yourself {1:05 AM}